I used to believe the best of everyone. This past week I have come to the conclusion that there are some people that do not have any "best" in them at all. I have finally removed my rose colored glasses. I'm sure many people will be glad of that and are sick of my happy go lucky attitude; so to them this will be a wonderful thing.
Maybe I have been a little naïve. I have always looked for something good in every person I met. I now know there are evil people in this world that would tear someone's life apart just to prove a point. It has nothing to do with what is right or wrong. It has to do with power.
Isn't is a shame? I was thinking how humans are truly like animals. An example would be bullying. The "pack" will find the weakest person and try to ruin that persons life because they have never been taught to stand up for themselves. They torment and sneakily pull pranks on the unsuspecting victim of the bullying. They enjoy hurting the person, thus making themselves feel superior.
Is this not just like animals? Animals go for the weakest link and either kill or abandon it.
Now here comes the hurdle part. I need to find a way to let the evil people of the world and what they do roll off my back like water on a duck. I need to find in my heart how I used to feel about the human race. I know there are more nice people than not in the world. It's just that the mean people seem to overpower them. It reminds me of being told that it takes five positive things said to you to make up for one bad thing said to you. Same kind of thing. I need to hang out with only positive people and not let the negative people in my life any more.
I know I'm rattling on, but I really needed to get this off my chest and what better way than to blog. Maybe one day I will post this, maybe not.
Hurdles to overcome. Lets see if I'm strong enough to leap.
Saturday, June 1, 2013
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Retirement
So now that I am 50, I'm starting to wonder what it is like to retire. Does a person feel useless knowing that they are now of the age where they aren't as wanted in the work force anymore?
I saw our former custodian today from the courthouse and asked him how his retirement was treating him. Just wonderful he said with a smile. He had a spring in his step that I hadn't seen when I saw him bringing the mail to the post office every day. It may of been because it was the end of the day and he was tired but I don't think that was it. When I saw him today he said to have a nice Easter and a good weekend. I don't think I ever saw him smile so much. He looked happy too. Thus, he is one of the reasons I am writing this blog.
My dad on the other hand retired a few years ago. Did he stop working? Hell, no. He told me if he didn't keep working he would just up and die. Do I believe that? Yes, as a matter of fact I do. My dad's reputation has always been that he is a hard worker and dependable. What would his trademark be if he stopped working all together? A nice guy? A hunter and a fisherman? Who knows. The only difference with my dad and retiring is that if he wants to take a few days off and go fishing with the guys, he can without worrying about getting a job done in time.
Then there is my boss. He has just reached that age where you are ready to retire in the next few years. He is a great boss and I don't really want him to leave but I understand his reasoning. He wants to have a no stress life for the years he has left and his job now is very high stress. Especially with me as an employee...........grins.
As for me........ I kind of think I am more like my dad about the work thing and retirement. I like to think I am a hard worker and that I am needed at my job (notice I put like to think). I need that structure of having to be there every day. If I was retired......... oh man, that would be a not so good thing right now. I would sleep until noon, stay up until the wee hours of the morning and become so large that I wouldn't fit in a chair... lol. Just teasing about the chair thing, but you get the picture. On the other hand I could take my granddaughter for weeks on end without a care in the world and go with Allen on trips.........that is if his health was good and we had the money to even go, and get all my pictures in a scrapbook, have a huge garden and entertain constantly. Hey, that kind of sounds good doesn't it? Retirement? I can't wait!!! :)
I saw our former custodian today from the courthouse and asked him how his retirement was treating him. Just wonderful he said with a smile. He had a spring in his step that I hadn't seen when I saw him bringing the mail to the post office every day. It may of been because it was the end of the day and he was tired but I don't think that was it. When I saw him today he said to have a nice Easter and a good weekend. I don't think I ever saw him smile so much. He looked happy too. Thus, he is one of the reasons I am writing this blog.
My dad on the other hand retired a few years ago. Did he stop working? Hell, no. He told me if he didn't keep working he would just up and die. Do I believe that? Yes, as a matter of fact I do. My dad's reputation has always been that he is a hard worker and dependable. What would his trademark be if he stopped working all together? A nice guy? A hunter and a fisherman? Who knows. The only difference with my dad and retiring is that if he wants to take a few days off and go fishing with the guys, he can without worrying about getting a job done in time.
Then there is my boss. He has just reached that age where you are ready to retire in the next few years. He is a great boss and I don't really want him to leave but I understand his reasoning. He wants to have a no stress life for the years he has left and his job now is very high stress. Especially with me as an employee...........grins.
As for me........ I kind of think I am more like my dad about the work thing and retirement. I like to think I am a hard worker and that I am needed at my job (notice I put like to think). I need that structure of having to be there every day. If I was retired......... oh man, that would be a not so good thing right now. I would sleep until noon, stay up until the wee hours of the morning and become so large that I wouldn't fit in a chair... lol. Just teasing about the chair thing, but you get the picture. On the other hand I could take my granddaughter for weeks on end without a care in the world and go with Allen on trips.........that is if his health was good and we had the money to even go, and get all my pictures in a scrapbook, have a huge garden and entertain constantly. Hey, that kind of sounds good doesn't it? Retirement? I can't wait!!! :)
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Thoughts and Shots
I figured I haven't written here for awhile and that it was time to update a little. I was just reading some of the blogs from other people I know, and I can honestly tell you that they should of went in another direction with their careers.
I loved reading what they had written. They are quite talented and I can't wait to read more.
This year has been hard on the families that lost their loved ones. Mike LaPlante was one of the wonderful people that lost the battle with cancer. It was so quick, and I never did get the chance to say goodbye. He will be missed by many, me included.
Shawn and Terry Balderston lost their lives to a car accident this past week and I still find it hard to believe they are gone. I knew Shawn alot better than Terry, but if he was anything like Shawn, he would of been fun to be around. Shawn had a heart of gold, but had a bit of a devlish side to him too. I don't think he really got the chance to "find himself" and I wonder what he would of become if he had. I truly feel for his friends that were close to him.
I'm hoping this year is going to be better for all the people that have been struggling to make ends meet this last year. I know I will probably get some guff about this, but I really don't think Obama is getting a fair shake in all this political crap. The poor guy came in to a big mess and he doesn't have any backing at all from congress. I really hate that the Democrats and Republicans can't get it together and work out something that will benefit the people of the U.S. instead of themselves. I think Obama is trying to fix things, but probably not the things needing to be fixed right now and that will probably be his downfall if he fails. His heart is in the right place, I think.
Well, enough for now. Life is what you make it, right?
As I get older and feel the years slipping by me, I wonder how I will be remembered when I am gone. I hope that I have touched at least one or two lives and that I will be remembered fondly if at all.
Until next time,
Cindy
I loved reading what they had written. They are quite talented and I can't wait to read more.
This year has been hard on the families that lost their loved ones. Mike LaPlante was one of the wonderful people that lost the battle with cancer. It was so quick, and I never did get the chance to say goodbye. He will be missed by many, me included.
Shawn and Terry Balderston lost their lives to a car accident this past week and I still find it hard to believe they are gone. I knew Shawn alot better than Terry, but if he was anything like Shawn, he would of been fun to be around. Shawn had a heart of gold, but had a bit of a devlish side to him too. I don't think he really got the chance to "find himself" and I wonder what he would of become if he had. I truly feel for his friends that were close to him.
I'm hoping this year is going to be better for all the people that have been struggling to make ends meet this last year. I know I will probably get some guff about this, but I really don't think Obama is getting a fair shake in all this political crap. The poor guy came in to a big mess and he doesn't have any backing at all from congress. I really hate that the Democrats and Republicans can't get it together and work out something that will benefit the people of the U.S. instead of themselves. I think Obama is trying to fix things, but probably not the things needing to be fixed right now and that will probably be his downfall if he fails. His heart is in the right place, I think.
Well, enough for now. Life is what you make it, right?
As I get older and feel the years slipping by me, I wonder how I will be remembered when I am gone. I hope that I have touched at least one or two lives and that I will be remembered fondly if at all.
Until next time,
Cindy
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Bent but not broken........yet. :)
So, instead of doing what I am supposed to be doing, I thought I would come on and blog for a bit. I saw my fellow blogger today and she put the idea in my head. I love reading her stories on her blog. She is so funny, yet hits home on many topics.
I am really supposed to be writing a story for a magazine right now, but am procrastinating a little because I have until September. I want to finish the 2nd book in the dust bunnies series too, but haven't gotten to that either....tsk tsk tsk.
Usually, I am off in the summer, but now that I have a full time job where I work it seems like my whole world is turned upside down. I need to get things done in a shorter period of time at home and don't have the luxury of putting it off until tomorrow.....smiles.
Can I just say I really appreciate weekends now? I so love to cuddle back in the covers and go back to sleep after looking at the clock, seeing 5:30 a.m. and knowing I can go back to sleep and sleep as late as I want. It's like fuel to a gas tank on a car.......grins.
Ok, ok. I have procrastinated enough and will go take my shower, lay out my clothes for tomorrow and hopefully still find time before bed to write a chapter or two.
I am really supposed to be writing a story for a magazine right now, but am procrastinating a little because I have until September. I want to finish the 2nd book in the dust bunnies series too, but haven't gotten to that either....tsk tsk tsk.
Usually, I am off in the summer, but now that I have a full time job where I work it seems like my whole world is turned upside down. I need to get things done in a shorter period of time at home and don't have the luxury of putting it off until tomorrow.....smiles.
Can I just say I really appreciate weekends now? I so love to cuddle back in the covers and go back to sleep after looking at the clock, seeing 5:30 a.m. and knowing I can go back to sleep and sleep as late as I want. It's like fuel to a gas tank on a car.......grins.
Ok, ok. I have procrastinated enough and will go take my shower, lay out my clothes for tomorrow and hopefully still find time before bed to write a chapter or two.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Rain & Mowing
I don't understand about all this rain. Some people think it is the wrath of god and that the end of the world is near, or that global warning has something to do with it. Myself, I think it has something to do with the satellites up in the sky.
I mowed our lawn today, which by the way is a city block long. We are trying to sell the other half of our land but no buyers as of yet. Allen usually mows but has been having trouble with his heart again and has to see the doc next week, so I wanted to make things easier for him. Of course, he does a much better job than I, but I did the best I could with what I had to work with....smiles.
When I started mowing I was using the push mower. I could only last for about forty minutes and I had to stop because I thought I was going to die. Allen called and I told him I was mowing and he asked why I wasn't using the rider.
The riding lawnmower and I don't exactly get along but I looked at that humungus yard and thought, what the heck. I went to the shed to get it out and can I just say to pull that mower out of there is not an easy task. I got it out and tried to start it. Yes, it is a electric start, but nothing happened when I turned the key. Finally, after about ten minutes I figured out that I needed to put it in neutral for it to start. I'm getting a little excited now that it's started and start mowing, but it wouldn't cut the grass. I by now am getting a little frustrated and can I say a little embarrassed too, thinking of all the people that live around me thinking I am a fruitcake not knowing how to run a riding lawnmower. I pull the mower over by the garage door where I will be less seen and look underneath where the blade is. Well, let me tell you. We need a new blade. There are big chunks of the blade out of it and it is a wonder that I will get it to cut at all. I get all the excess grass from underneath and try it again. Finally, it started cutting. I am just about to the front yard with the mowing when all of a sudden a little dog started dancing in and out around the mower. I was scared I was going to run him over so I stopped the mower and told him to go home. I thought he was my neighbors dog but as I was coming up to her house, she started backing her car out. She stopped and said, "Isn't that a cute little dog?" I said yes, do you know whose it is? She said it was our other neighbors. I led him toward the other neighbors on the opposite block and went back to mow. As a started to mow, it started to rain. Can you believe that? I was soaked by the time I finished mowing and thought to myself, I am so never doing this again....smiles.
Actually, I think it is supposed to be nice next week. Maybe I can try again..........
I mowed our lawn today, which by the way is a city block long. We are trying to sell the other half of our land but no buyers as of yet. Allen usually mows but has been having trouble with his heart again and has to see the doc next week, so I wanted to make things easier for him. Of course, he does a much better job than I, but I did the best I could with what I had to work with....smiles.
When I started mowing I was using the push mower. I could only last for about forty minutes and I had to stop because I thought I was going to die. Allen called and I told him I was mowing and he asked why I wasn't using the rider.
The riding lawnmower and I don't exactly get along but I looked at that humungus yard and thought, what the heck. I went to the shed to get it out and can I just say to pull that mower out of there is not an easy task. I got it out and tried to start it. Yes, it is a electric start, but nothing happened when I turned the key. Finally, after about ten minutes I figured out that I needed to put it in neutral for it to start. I'm getting a little excited now that it's started and start mowing, but it wouldn't cut the grass. I by now am getting a little frustrated and can I say a little embarrassed too, thinking of all the people that live around me thinking I am a fruitcake not knowing how to run a riding lawnmower. I pull the mower over by the garage door where I will be less seen and look underneath where the blade is. Well, let me tell you. We need a new blade. There are big chunks of the blade out of it and it is a wonder that I will get it to cut at all. I get all the excess grass from underneath and try it again. Finally, it started cutting. I am just about to the front yard with the mowing when all of a sudden a little dog started dancing in and out around the mower. I was scared I was going to run him over so I stopped the mower and told him to go home. I thought he was my neighbors dog but as I was coming up to her house, she started backing her car out. She stopped and said, "Isn't that a cute little dog?" I said yes, do you know whose it is? She said it was our other neighbors. I led him toward the other neighbors on the opposite block and went back to mow. As a started to mow, it started to rain. Can you believe that? I was soaked by the time I finished mowing and thought to myself, I am so never doing this again....smiles.
Actually, I think it is supposed to be nice next week. Maybe I can try again..........
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Good People
I just wanted to talk about how wonderful the Brumwell boys are. Ryan and Jason put together this event called Hoops for Hope. They started this fundraiser before their mother passed away from cancer and have been doing it for a a few years now. They get teams together to compete in basketball. Each team player has to try and fundraise at least 100.00 I think. This year Ryan and Jason collected over 21,000 for cancer. Isn't that amazing? I had the great enjoyment of visiting with them at the school today (I worked a little late to make up for our visit). What wonderful men they turned out to be. Jason is a council member now and graduated ten years ago from Lafayette with my daughter, Tina. He is also going to school for business management as well as operating Voyageur's View with his brother Ryan and sister Stephanie. There is one more sister too named Heather who is not involved with the tubing campground. She runs a daycare and keeps busy with her children as well.
Before I say any more about the kids, I want to tell you about their mother. I was 17 and working the summer at the library. Diane (their mom) came in with two little rambunctious boys to take out some books. I remember to this day how soft spoken and sweet she was with Ryan and Jason and how much patience she had. She was the sweetest woman I knew back then. I almost envied those little boys.....but really couldn't because I had a wonderful mom too.
Anyway, that is my first impression of Diane. I got to know her in future years and I never saw her angry or anything but nice. I knew she had a big job somewhere but didn't really know what it consisted of. Her husband Dick was just as nice as she was and still is to this day. Their family didn't deserve what happened to them. The pain they must of felt when their mother died pains me even now to think about. I am so glad that they have the memories of who she was and how wonderful she was.
So back to the kids in the family. Ryan, is a teacher (I think a history teacher if I'm not mistaken) and has the sense of humor of his dad and is such a joker. He is as sweet as his brother Jason. Stephanie, I don't know much about except that she is a hard worker and is married. I think she has kids too. Neither Ryan and Jason are married.
Just seeing these boys (or should I say men now even though they are twenty years younger) today brought back so many memories. They were great to me when they were in school and they were just as wonderful today when I saw them again. I do believe that both their hearts are made of gold. Perhaps that is why they haven't met the girls of their dreams, yet?........grins.
Until next time,
Cindy
Before I say any more about the kids, I want to tell you about their mother. I was 17 and working the summer at the library. Diane (their mom) came in with two little rambunctious boys to take out some books. I remember to this day how soft spoken and sweet she was with Ryan and Jason and how much patience she had. She was the sweetest woman I knew back then. I almost envied those little boys.....but really couldn't because I had a wonderful mom too.
Anyway, that is my first impression of Diane. I got to know her in future years and I never saw her angry or anything but nice. I knew she had a big job somewhere but didn't really know what it consisted of. Her husband Dick was just as nice as she was and still is to this day. Their family didn't deserve what happened to them. The pain they must of felt when their mother died pains me even now to think about. I am so glad that they have the memories of who she was and how wonderful she was.
So back to the kids in the family. Ryan, is a teacher (I think a history teacher if I'm not mistaken) and has the sense of humor of his dad and is such a joker. He is as sweet as his brother Jason. Stephanie, I don't know much about except that she is a hard worker and is married. I think she has kids too. Neither Ryan and Jason are married.
Just seeing these boys (or should I say men now even though they are twenty years younger) today brought back so many memories. They were great to me when they were in school and they were just as wonderful today when I saw them again. I do believe that both their hearts are made of gold. Perhaps that is why they haven't met the girls of their dreams, yet?........grins.
Until next time,
Cindy
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Graduation and life in general
I have so many thoughts swirling around always in my head that sometimes it makes me dizzy......grins.
My youngest daughter will be graduating in May and it is starting to hit me that we will soon be done raising our kids and what they do from that moment on is by their choice, not ours.
I like to think we taught Tina and Brenda good work ethics. They are both good employees and I have never heard a bad word about either one in the area. Might be because I'm their mom, but I don't think that is the case.
I worry that we taught them to be a little too independent. Did I show them I loved them enough? My big thing for both girls was to have good grades and if they worked, to be proud of the job they do.
My boss told me that you teach people how to treat you. So, being my quick thinking self........grins, I told him, and I quote, "So I must of taught you well then because you are one of the best bosses I have ever had. He laughed. He has a great sense of humor as do both of my bosses. I do enjoy working for both of them and they treat me well.
Anyway, back to the teaching people how to treat you. I do believe there is some truth in that, don't you? I mean if you come across with confidence, you probably won't get teased or bullied when you are younger or older for that matter. If you are nice to people you are teaching them to return that niceness back to you. If you are rude, it makes the person want to be rude back. It makes alot of sense doesn't it?
Back to the graduation. I need to finish up the senior books for the seniors that I do every year. I started in Tina's grade.........yes, your grade Kurt, and I think I might be done this year. It is getting to be so busy for me with everything, I find I don't have the time or energy anymore. I love the kids at our school the same, it's just that I don't have the time to show them like I did before. I used to put birthday cards in their lockers on their birthdays, I used to have a trivia question every day and the winner would get a treat.........stuff like that I miss doing. Maybe I should try and talk someone else in to doing it, right?.......smiles.
Brenda is going to go to school to be a lawyer. Hopefully I won't need one in my lifetime, but then again you never know........smiles. She is going to UND and is very excited to start her new life. I think she will find it hard to leave us, but she will do fine as did Tina when she left.
Well, time for bed so going to sign off for now.
Until next time,
Cindy
My youngest daughter will be graduating in May and it is starting to hit me that we will soon be done raising our kids and what they do from that moment on is by their choice, not ours.
I like to think we taught Tina and Brenda good work ethics. They are both good employees and I have never heard a bad word about either one in the area. Might be because I'm their mom, but I don't think that is the case.
I worry that we taught them to be a little too independent. Did I show them I loved them enough? My big thing for both girls was to have good grades and if they worked, to be proud of the job they do.
My boss told me that you teach people how to treat you. So, being my quick thinking self........grins, I told him, and I quote, "So I must of taught you well then because you are one of the best bosses I have ever had. He laughed. He has a great sense of humor as do both of my bosses. I do enjoy working for both of them and they treat me well.
Anyway, back to the teaching people how to treat you. I do believe there is some truth in that, don't you? I mean if you come across with confidence, you probably won't get teased or bullied when you are younger or older for that matter. If you are nice to people you are teaching them to return that niceness back to you. If you are rude, it makes the person want to be rude back. It makes alot of sense doesn't it?
Back to the graduation. I need to finish up the senior books for the seniors that I do every year. I started in Tina's grade.........yes, your grade Kurt, and I think I might be done this year. It is getting to be so busy for me with everything, I find I don't have the time or energy anymore. I love the kids at our school the same, it's just that I don't have the time to show them like I did before. I used to put birthday cards in their lockers on their birthdays, I used to have a trivia question every day and the winner would get a treat.........stuff like that I miss doing. Maybe I should try and talk someone else in to doing it, right?.......smiles.
Brenda is going to go to school to be a lawyer. Hopefully I won't need one in my lifetime, but then again you never know........smiles. She is going to UND and is very excited to start her new life. I think she will find it hard to leave us, but she will do fine as did Tina when she left.
Well, time for bed so going to sign off for now.
Until next time,
Cindy
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